It has been days, and the images haunt me still.

I see this baby. She is lifeless and not breathing. Probably about the size of a 1 month old. All of a sudden, I see her chest start to move. She's breathing. She opens her eyes, looks straight at me and says, yes she talks to me, she says "I'm so cold", with a sad look on her face. I pick her up, lay her on my tummy, hold her tight and put a blanket on her. The feel of her on me is like ice. No warmth whatsoever. I start telling her how much she is loved and I tried my best. She looks at me and says "I'm trapped in this box" and closes her eyes and quits breathing. I started crying and all I could say was "go towards the light baby"...I love you. I woke up at 3:30 a.m. and couldn't not go back to sleep. I just kept looking at the full moon streaming thru my window.

I cry as I type this and it has been days. I thought maybe telling it to you guys would somehow...to quote GS here, but release the demons?

I lost a child now 7 years ago. I was only five months along. I knew something was wrong when her kicks weren't as strong as I knew they should be. She would have been my third. I had to deliver her, dying at 5 months. She only lived a few seconds after birth. The doctor wouldn't let me see her because he said it would be to devestating...abnormalties. Turner's syndrome. I had named her Jamie.

I've never had a dream like this before. Why? After so long? I don't understand.

i'm so sorry honey. i wish i had some words of wisdom or some words of peace but i don't. i've miscarried several times and i know the pain you feel however i wasn't as far along as you were - 3 months was the longest i carried before miscarrying - so i can't imagine having to deliver a dying baby. i don't feel your lost child is trying to tell you something, like she's suffering or lost. maybe you haven't truly dealt with the loss, honored it so to speak, and it's beginning to haunt you? maybe you could consider some kind of ritual to say goodbye and therefore free your lost baby? i'm sure people said some pretty stupid things regarding your loss and it left you feeling as if you shouldn't mourn her short life and passing properly. many people told me i was young and could get pregnant again which made me feel as if the baby i lost didn't mean anything to anyone but me. there were no goodbyes, nothing solid to show they existed, if only for a short time and if only inside my body. maybe it's you who needs the peace and to honor the loss?
much love to you dear,
my heart breaks for you.

My condolences... wish I could help in some way. I have a very small amount of knowledge when it comes to dreams... and then there is philosophy with the whole 'we are awake when we are asleep and it is actually reality' thing, so I am somewhat confused about the subject myself. Perhaps this dream is a way of you to cope with the loss? I do agree with MamaKat up there. Once again, my condolences... my heart goes out to you.

awww girl i feel fer ya ova here...
i really don't have any solid interpretation of what that means for u.. i think the only one who will deeply understand this dream can be you.. to me it seems like the baby is more symbolic of something pure and innocent ... something pure is cold trapped.. trapped in a box could symbolize so many things.. very trippy dream right there.. whether that ties into your past experience there i am not certain either.. there could be something else going on in your life right now that somehow triggered something in your memory, they say this happens with trauma.. so i'm not sure whats been goin on in ur life but something around u could have set this off, OR, there is some sort of conflict u are feeling trapped in or something.. not sure..
intense... i hope u figure this out so it doesn't cause you any more grief than it already has
no worries girl everything is ok, best to ya from a random stranger.
cheers

pulled from a dream site;

"Answer
'Hi Rebecca, without detail it is hard to say really. But usually these dreams are for one of two reasons. One is obviously dealing with an abortion or death of a child. Rarely is this the case but I don't know your situation.

The more likely reason for the dream is that your mind is telling you that those feelings of traits associated with being a baby are now gone because you are older or something happened that showed you that you no longer have those traits. These are things like helplessness, vulnerability. You now can help yourself and there is no need to always rely on others.

HOpe that helps, Peace. John'"

another site states to dream of a dead baby means someone is going to die but that's not what i heard growing up. dreaming of a baby that's passed on always meant new life.

i can't claim to have insight here but i strongly feel your dream is tied to not fully being over the loss of your baby, no matter how long ago it's been. something may have triggered the memory and brought the grief back in full force, as vampiress posted.
we're here for you honeybee. many of us have dealt with our share of loss.

You guys are simply the best! By reading all your comments above it hit me. Something HAD just recently happened w/ my oldest child. I never connected the dots until now. Wow. And you know Kat, I don't think moms ever truly "get over" the loss of there children. No matter how tiny, they will always be a part of us. I'm sorry you didn't have the support when you needed it.

Ya know, I stopped freaking out about this dream the moment I finished typing and sharing it w/ you guys. And then to come back and actually understand w/ some clarity thanks to your thoughts and posts...it helped me soooo much.

Now, what do I have to do to have dreams of HOT guys on remote beaches? Huh? lololol.

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from a dream interpritation stand point i would say that you are still feeling guilty for it. you brought the child into the world and it died, "how could it not be your fault?" no...don't beilive that. in my opinion you should do internet resurch on the condition the child died from to know that you could not posibly done anything to prevent that outcome.

however...

as per my spitual experiance in this matter i would say, without over stateing it, that you are most likely haunted by some deep dark demons of the dream world. those demons have plaqed me with nasty dreams ever since my mom died two years ago.

where i can't say i have ever lost a child, i was very disaponted when i found out that i was not going to have one when i missed my period three months in a row.

*hugs you*

i know what it's like to lose someone you care for, but if you relize that the demons cannot hurt you in the wakeing, you will be able to fight them in later dreams of this nature. this may be hard to hear, but when you picked up the child in your dream you entered your self to the game the demons were playing. to most demons in the dream world they pray on dreamers with weak or abused emotions. this is purely my opinion, baced on things that i myself has experianced. I have had countless dreams of my mother turning her back on me and ignoreing me and even stranger, fighting with me {with swords or magic, my dreams are all very conviluted.} i cannot escape my night demons. but i wish you all the luck with escapeing yours.